all i hold is tragedy and pain

why does life suck so damn much?

2004-04-15T05:13:12Z

why does it suck so much eh? seems like evrytime this god forsaken world is going to get better it always turns around and fucks me. some times i contaplate suicide but i nowi could never do that its just i have a weird fasination for death. i write depressing songs that in my opinion dot really mean anything to anyone else its like they only relate to me. like this new one i wrote called "suicide" i know a lot of people think of it but very seldom people follow through what a fucked up world we have come to live in.

"suicide"

suicide is always there
taking the pain away
never letting you retreat
taking all the agony away from me

Chours
suicide is the only way out
of this shit whole of a life
suicide is the only way out
in a life thats fucked
and in a world that dont give a damn

will this world ever stop being
cruel never
who need acceptence
when you hold a razor

so just take your life
who cares for you
take your pain
whos gonna miss you anyway

fuck you

2004-04-06T12:45:00Z

one of my really good friends (well i consider her to be) told me that this guy was talking shit about her or what not but in the end i dont tlike this kid at ll i mean he talksshit about all my friends and if he keeps on the path he is haha let me tell you that path will end really soon if ya know what i mean. yeah i mean dont get me wrong ive talk my share of shit about people but never lik that like saying shit i did wih a girl and i really didnt yeah that kinda pisses me off ok well it pisses meoff a lot and people dont understand that when realationships are over and every one is gone family and your true friends are always there i know i sound just a tad emo right now bu eh i guess everyone is at some point anyways i wrote a song yeah and it says shit a lot its not a very good song but yeah it works i guess.......

you talk about what is not true
making girls feel like shit
just cause youir in a band
to me you dont mean shit

everytime you say shit
it makes me wanna kill you
you talk a lot of shit
next time you say shit about one of my friends
your life is fucking through

freidns and family is all i hold dear
but when im all alone
i feel like no one is near
this is why freidns mean everything
i hear about the thing you said
you fuck with my friends again your fucking DEAD

bored and all by myslf

2004-04-05T00:17:42Z

Hey people whats up me n0thing just sitting hre being bored outta my mind trying to find somthing to do but we all know that isnt gonna happen cause ll my friends are douche bags yup damn this sucks i think imma just go to sleep and then every thing will be all better hahaha alright then bye bye

i cant this anymore

2004-03-26T00:28:07Z

im tired of my life people telling me what to love what to hate what to believe and what nt to believ in its all gay my dads like you better get a 9-5 andwork til your 60 and then you can do what i want and thats not what i wanna do i know its the american dream and whatever the hel it is but its just not for me. i dont know anymore and then on top of all that my best frend and guitarist is moving to Mexico for at leas a month where is my band going to from there i have no idea. replace my best friend? nah im not going to do that shit i cant do that. wait til he gets back? idont wanna wait a month to start making musici just dont know anymore this is a screwed up life i live in no joke at all and i just foun out the girl i was going out with for a year was with another guy at the same time how screwed is that it is screwed but i dont screw it and screw life later